time

I have been thinking about this for some TIME but, i don't have enough to really think about it, so I'm writing it out maybe some others, or like the two people who look at this say something or what they have noticed...

Time has become something that is so important to us, that we have schedules for years in advance of things already planned out and ready to go. Everything in America is so timed base that if you are late to some things it almost means your dysfunctional...like what were you really doing something else more important to be late at my thing...

is time valuable?
i think that yes it is, but maybe not in the way i normally think about it...i think we have all heard the saying time is money, but that is because if were not working were not making money...so waisting time is actually costing us money, which is another topic about how were addicted to money...but time is something were addicted to as well.

i know that there are some places that don't really keep track as much as Americans do, and that things are more like when i get there i get there sort of mindset, but then there are others who its more, if something comes up i need to take care of it.

why are we so addicted to time?

just the other day i was heading early in the morning from the church to my girlfriends house, i saw a kid that i just said hi to about 2 hours ago and asked how he was doing walking on the street towards his house. it was pretty cold out, and he was in shorts and a t-shirt. i looked at him walking, he was a little ways away, and i thought to myself should i go up there and pick him up or see if he wants a ride to his house? i sat there for almost a min. thinking to myself. but after that min i decided to somewhat con myself out of going, saying he is probably close to home, or he will say no thanks to my ride, not see that it was someone who he knew...so i drove off not giving him a ride at all...i honestly could have taken 1 min picked him up dropped him off and been on my way, but i didn't.

i am reading this new book and its really getting go me and it was talking about how everyone is our neighbor and how we should treat everyone, and looking at my past Ive been a freaking bad neighbor for sure....

so maybe the next time your hurrying off to go get food, or towards something that you cant miss or be late for, to just take a sec 1 SEC and see what really needs to be addressed at that time....maybe God just needs America and the world to slow down to really see him....or maybe at least me.

pointless (ie this writing)

dang ok again its been way to long but now im really going to start writing more often cuase it will be more fun for me that way

today was the last official class of World Civ.2 and you know that there is a God on earth cause if not this day would have never come around thats for sure. Only one more test for the class and its over with, i didnt know i would be so happy to get out of a class.

Why is life so hard? (this is my topic for now)

Now for being in Bible college for a year some things in my life have really changed, my money has been well spent on some classes, and not so good on others. Coming to this college you see everyone in such happy good places in their lives, like this is heaven to some. And i guess it can be for some, but for me I feel alone here. It could be cause I dont have a lot of frineds, but maybe its cause i dont got the balls to go out and find them.

I have relized that being away from someone who you care for so much is hard too. I didnt even think i would be in a relationship going into college, i have always thought that i would be alone the rest of my life, even though i didnt ever want that, and then i found her, and shes amazing. Its just hard being away, and when things are rough, it feels like i have lost part of me. I wish i had a magic snap to make everything better, but i dont.

Some days i feel like the most slow person on campus, Bible wise and knowledge wise. I feel like i dont know crap, and maybe its cause im not hooked up with a church and get to be around kids which i dearly love to do, and its time for me to get back into it.

All i konw that even though my times are hard, God is still there for me, and always has been. When i got crap on my plate, I give it to Him, and it really helps. Its amazing to have a growing relationship with Him. at least i know where ever i am either spiritualy or emotioinaly he is always there for me. Thanks GOD!


well that was me ranting.